this thread is good wrote:
if you want to change your life for the better, and you really got your money through unethical means, you should give it to a charity or a church. fake sympathy won't heal your soul.
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This person is on the right track (no pun intended). You want me to suggest "ethical means" for investing it? How do I know you have the right intentions? You need to reexamine your goals and life up to this point as a 19yo who obtained 205k in cash illegally first. I can't offer you any investments at this point. Any anybody else who offers advice is a fool.