Great thread, good to see it bumped, although it's usually not for great reasons. Update on my post from above from 8+ years ago. I lasted about 30 days. Back in 2016 is also about when I stopped running with any regularity. So the drinking only worsened, but I at least was stable with it. Meaning still no serious repercussions with relationships, career wise or legally. Just continued damage to my health.
Then COVID hit, and that pushed me from a every night drinker, to an every day and night drinker. And within a few months without completely realizing it, I became physically addicted. When I say without realizing it, I mean it. I had no idea how bad it got. I took one morning off drinking to drive the family to the cabin and spent the afternoon working outside. I got a bit lightheaded and told them I wanted to lay down for a minute. Apparently I got up, walked outside, and down a gravel road. Luckily I turned right on the road, towards town a few miles away. Had I turned left I would have entered a 40,000 acre wildlife refuge. So they were able to find me in the ditch unconscious about an hour later.
I then spent 8 days in two hospitals with multiple grand mal seizures from withdrawal. That sobered me up for about 30 days but the depression was too much from all I'd put myself through and I was back at it. Eventually I stopped eating and could only drink. So I admitted myself to rehab and spent a month there in May of '21. I stayed sober after that for about 4 months but couldn't hack it. And was back in rehab for another 3 weeks last April.
The good news? On April 26th this month I'll be sober for a whole goddamn year. I've got my first race since 2015 in a couple of weeks and a marathon next month. I could give everyone reading this thread a novel on the whole process, but these are at least the cliffs notes. But I'll just say that the process is an individual journey, no body can tell you how it's going to go for you. So be skeptical of taking advice from anyone that thinks they have all the answers. But the one commonality between everyone, and I mean everyone, that has at least gotten to where I have with sobriety is they haven't given up. And whatever you do, don't do that.