Maybe somebody understands what I am going to say. I feel despondent every day. I used to like running. More than now I mean. Now I make myself lace up and train every morning and I do track sessions with the team after school but it's hard going. Everyone else seems to have a fun, hot gf and they get tons of action at least that's what they boast. Nobody calls them on it so I think at least some of it must be true. I am OK looking and I can handle social interactions with no problems but I have a hard time asking for anything more from girls. I take refuge somewhat in training and running but I admit racing is a reach. I can't get up for it and I know I will be beaten soundly at both 8 and 15 if it matters. I have not been able to get under 2 but I came close last summer. My buds don't run but we all smoke a few blunts in the basement and that makes it better for a while. Lots of guys here seem to run D1 or at least competitive at college. Is there anything better in store for me? I guess I want to know how to bump my life up so I can break 2 and then 4 and then feel like it's worth it?