So I realized that I had some talent for running my freshman year. I ran 4:42 for the 1600 as a freshman, and 4:24 as a sophomore. Both of these years, I absolutely loved running. Everything was going well, bad races were very rare, training was fun, and I loved pushing myself. Starting my junior year, I quit golf and started running cross country, and this was where the problems started. My sophomore year, I was the best returning distance runner in the conference by a significant amount, so I was expecting to win the cross country title by a fairly wide margin. I blew up in the race and got 9th. To put this in perspective, I got beat by a guy who I lapped in the 3200 at the conference finals in track. I had a crappy junior year of track, which was extremely disappointing, because it greatly diminished my chances of getting recruited to a good school. Since then it has been the same. My junior year, I started putting alot of pressure on myself to do well, and this is when the problems started. No matter what I do, I can't seem to run well. I can't seem to get back to the place where I don't put much pressure on myself, and am simply running for the love of it. I had one semi-decent race this cross country season, but the rest has been absolute crap (I ran 17:54 today) . I am simply losing the enthusiasm and motivation that I had earlier in my running career, to the extent that I dont really care that I did poorly after a bad race, and I am seriously considering quitting after this season. The rest of my life has been great. I've been getting great grades and enjoying school, I have a girlfriend, and a good social life, but the running peice simply isnt there anymore. Any advice on what I should do would be greatly appreciated.