AM: did your wife know that HD ran in her family? And did she tell you this before you were married? My wife did inform me, but a person cannot foresee the ugliness of HD, and so i didn't worry too much about it in 1984. I never divorced her, but i sure thought about it at times, as things got worse. I remember being extremely angry at her for getting fired repeatedly (she was an RN), and for not 'trying harder' in her job. This was the cognitive-loss part of HD manifesting itself. And very frankly, i did lose my temper and hit her a few times, much later on (mid 90's),mostly over her absolute refusal to allow help. I haven't said that to many people. Of course i am ashamed of it.
I also recall being angry at others who mocked or otherwise stared inappropriately at her public appearance and behavior. I try to be a wiser, more compassionate person in light of my experience.
I'm not religious at all, but after she died, i thanked God, as if he said, 'you've been thru enough.' I know that's selfish, but there you have it.
Regarding your running therapy, I'm not sure your wife was so much in pain as perhaps in shear terror. Imagine knowing how HD manifests itself, then seeing those symptoms gradually emerge in yourself, with no cure. This is the thing i feel most sorry for my wife over: the absolute terror she must have been covering up because she knew the disease from her mom's experience. She denied it to her death bed, but i know she knew what was up.
I think i've said too much, getting too personal, so i will stop now.