I learned to be less reckless and do things in moderation more. At some point the fake aura of invincibility wears off and you realize you're not a 20 year old kid anymore
As I age, I appreciate more and more the sheer genius demonstrated across all of kanye's discography - especially the life of pablo. TLOP is a truly transcendent piece of art and i don't think enough people see it for what it is
I used to really value posting under my real name, but as I've gotten older (or rather just over the past couple months) I've learned that it can also be really fun to use a whole bunch of anonymous handles.
I like 'heartless' and 'stronger'. Kanye seems to avoid the street thug stereotype of many rappers. I hope puff douchey gets what he deserves if the allegations are true.
Many more of us live a generation and sometimes two longer than our ancestors did even 100-200 years ago. ( though my parents only lived to be 35 and 46) . When you read books or watch movies about people's lives and personalities and even their life endings of those centuries not so far back, realize you have probably got another 20-30 years more than they did to learn and discover things about people, yourself, and life than they did. I find it exciting to know that I have another couple of decades to understand my complexities and those of others and life and also to enjoy things better through these understandings....before Alzheimer's or some such ill sets in...or hopefully not.
Idk life feels like a dream. All the things you thought were real and solid are just facades on the deep truth of the world that change is permanent, society and nothing in life in guaranteed, and we all perish. It’s both morbid and beautiful, depending on how you look at it.
More and more I try to remove the waste in life - minimize drinking or drug use, staying up late, being around lame people or negative things. But I also don’t want to overanalyze everything, every minute.
I think being young, there’s a levity to things because you think it goes on forever. You get to 25, 30, 35 and realize you only have 1 shot at it all and it’s sobering.
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The older I have become, the less I hard I've tried to make having a "Good time" be my focus and driving force. My younger self often over did it, and that was surprisingly unfulfilling and left me feeling empty. It's not like I regret that, but I outgrew it.
Then I changed the focus to providing and building a life, and that was a bit easier because the dictates of family, career, and job gave me structure and purpose. And there was a certain satisfaction in that, it was tangible, and it wasn't like you had to do a whole lot of inner searching and evaluating, and the payoff was understood to be in large part, off in the future.
Then, in senior years, a big change of focus and I am finding that what is necessary needs to come from oneself and what is to be is what you make of it. This takes a very different type of organization and discipline, frankly. One learns certain things work and certain things are unfulfilling, and that may be what comes to shape your direction.
There's a little more to it about lessons learned, but that may very well be different for other people.
Get rid of childhood mortality (people posting are long past that) and you are talking about 10-15 years between a person now and 1800… not really much of an increase. There is pretty decent drop in they were healthy last week deaths but it isn’t really enough to move the needle.
Becoming o.k. that I am probably "the kind" of person for whom there will be small memorial events/funerals if any when I pass. By now I have seen many people exit this way and some not and I can see that value judgment concerns about the individuals, legacy all that, doesn't matter. I hate even to admit that I thought "Oh my god, nobody is coming to my funeral because I am such a loser, my family will be embarrassed, etc., but I did sometimes"
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My appetite for trolling right wingers grows unchecked as I age. It's the only change I have welcomed as the years go by
Considering you're not very good at it now I'd hate to see how bad you were when you were young.
Judging by all the right wing rage I've attracted, I'm perfectly content with my abilities. Sorry I'm not up to your standards. Then again, it isn't that hard to trigger a right winger so maybe I shouldn't be so proud