Just so sick of it! I believe I am physically capable of breaking existing PRs, but I'm just sick of always repeating the process of getting in the right training at the right time to target the right race. It's just annoying to structure life around tentative calendar dates. You do 2 workouts every week and that's over 100 workouts per year and all but a couple are just trying to rebuild to your previous PR fitness and you have the stress of fitting this around life obligations such as family vacations where you can't get in your coffee-stretch-warmup-workout-cooldown routine. Nothing else in life is as "inefficient" from a work-results perspective. There's just so much preparation involved in getting to a start line feeling fitter than ever and light and with some bounce in the legs. It's the best feeling in the world when you do. On the other hand, it can mentally wreck you if you can't run your target race or if you have a poor race. I have a race I'm thinking of running on my birthday next month and might not because if I run bad (because of illness or whatever) then I'll ruin any positive vibes I had. I might just quit trying to race at least for the remainder of the year and see if I can find some inspiration to restart next year. Quite honestly, I have trouble taking time off to relax because all I can think about is how I'm "wasting" my fitness I built or how I'm "falling behind" my compatriots. I know I'm not the only one.