Why do i feel like people are always staring at me, judging everything im doing? I have social anxiety disorder and this happens everywhere im going out of my house, i can never just calm down, im constantly having to remember to just breath in and out, my muscles tense up and i am well aware of how awkward i am, others see it too and just ignore me. Yesterday i had a massive panic attack at school and was in shell shock phase. This isn't healthy and every time i go to public depending on where it is i always feel like im preparing for a battle with my mind. I literally just want this to end, this has gotten so bad that i could care less if i die which honestly i feel gives me an edge in running performance because my psyche changes into "the best pace is suicide pace and today looks like a good day to die' from Pre, running is my only escape and keeps me from thinking about the other part of my mind.
Does anyone have similar issues, or has in the past?
Please share thankyou-