So im 18 years old and a freshman running for a middl of the road D1 school in the northeast. My prs are definitely nothing special and i am not here on a scholarship. Prs are 16:21, 4:30, 1:58, 53 and im way towards the back of the pack of freshman on our team so i do not feel prioritized whatsoever (not to say that i deserve to be).
However I am quickly losing motivation to continue training and i dread practice every single day which is completely opposite to highschool where practice was what i looked forward to most. I drank and smoked throughout highschool but not a lot; running had always been my number one priority (wayyy before school).
In highschool i did horribly in school but now in college i am spending several hours a day studying and my grades have improved drastically. However smoking and drinking have also become a priority to me, leaving running at about 4th on my list.
I am really looking for advise and/or any suggestions or thoughts about my situation and how might i regain some motivation for my running or if i should continue my alternate path that includes drinking, weed, and good grades