You're misunderstanding.
It's noticing the little things that lead up to a crisis. Realizing what I've done in my past and unable to change it, and being on a course in life where the effects are abiding and lifelong.
You can try altering where you end up in life, but that's going to require years of dismantling your routines and schedules. Either you live a "forced" life and must settle for being satisfied, or you take the risks of being scared and alone for a few years hoping to go where you wanted in the first place.
I remember reading a quote about talking to a 3-year old and asking them what happiness is. Trying to find wisdom from a 3-year old? It's hilarious but they are so full of blind optimism.
Now back to the seemingly trifling matter:
I wonder what got me into shaving my legs so bare naked.
I'm a worrier. Not a warrior. And that's when I screwed up my dreams and here I am, posting at 3:11 AM on a LetsRun.
Cheer up, mate.