high schooler feeling this wrote:
well, i'm by no means a master, i'm in high school. but running is becoming less and less enjoyable- i like doing it but i hate competing. i want to run marathons or triathlons and continue doing yoga and surfing, which i truly love but never have enough time to do because of running. competing stresses me out and i don't think i've been happy for a long time, except on my long runs (leading me to think it's just the competition i don't like and the pressure). i plan on taking a break from competetive high school running in my junior year and maybe try a 10k or a half marathon- and from then on who knows... life is too short to punish yourself by doing something everyday you don't love.
That is the conundrum of High School athletics, participation vs excellence. As kids we are encouraged to participate in extracurricular activities and coached to do our best. If the athlete has potential they are pressed to excel and that pressure can sometimes turn away kids from participating. A catch 22 that all coaches struggle with. That is part of the job.
Running is a feel good activity, get a good run in and you feel good; everyone is a winner. But competition is stressful, it's the reality of sport. Put in a good effort, sometimes a painfully hard effort and there is no glory; except a personal best and may be some points in a meet. It can be a let down to put in all that work, race to you puke and then have a coach tell you that you could have done better.
Just keep this in mind, it's the coaches job to say those things and some are better at it than others. Sometimes teammates can be hard to get along with. That is life and you will have that to deal with that the rest of your life. Heck, your friends and family are sometimes hard to get along with at times. That is the human condition of socializing with others, no matter the activity; work, family, sports and surfing. Surfing is fun but I bet you that competitive surfing is stressful, especially if you have to make a living at it.
You are young and High School is one place along the way where we find the things we love to do. I liked competing in High School but wasn't good enough to get a scholarship. Truth be told, I never considered myself good enough to get a scholarship and my coach told me that is why I didn't get one. A Yoda moment in my life that has some resonating truth. But I never took Track that seriously, I did it for fun and I still like running 30 years later.