This is my first summer actually sucking it up and doing track all summer long with a small competitive group rather than, like last summer, ghosting and doing road races. I never used to have this problem, but ever since I started trying to hit times during races, I've ended up disappointing myself and my coach. In two weeks there's a huge qualifying meet, and I'm super nervous because I've never been able to run that time in a race??
It's weird. I run the 3000m, and 5 weeks ago I did a time trial and got 11:01. But in the race two weeks after, I ran 11:12 because my coach told me to stay with the lead girl and kick at the end. But she kicked early (600m left) and I ended up running out of gas (still new to speed, coming off of last year's half marathon training and high mileage but little speed).
And a few days ago, I ran a 5000m and got 18:52, and I was incredibly disappointed (well, it was a PR I guess) because it was such a bad race, my stomach was off and and I felt terrible from the first lap and ended up abandoning my 18:40 goal....The point is, I've had bad races all season!
But, that 5000m was only preparation for the big 3000m qualifier. My whole training plan has been centered around this qualifier. The time to beat is 10:50. But, I ran 10:50.5 in a time trial the weekend before last! It was weird. 9am, exhausted from working on my feet the night before, after doing loads of housework beforehand, just me and my coach on the track. I was tired beforehand, but he told me the splits beforehand (44/200m=3:40km) and I was confident that I could do it. No nerves or doubts. I hit all the paces perfectly until the last km--then I sped up and did the last km 10sec faster than planned!
But, I haven't been running as well in races this summer and I'm really nervous, especially after disappointing my coach and myself more than once.
I seem to run better during training when exhausted for a spontaneous time trial than well-rested for a race? Why is it easier to push myself when it's just me and the coach, as opposed to my bad habit of giving up midway through a race? Is it the nerves of racing, or a different mentality I need to watch for? Any tips/advice to run the time that I know that I physically can?