Well, I thought today would be the day. The day I finally break 4:00 in the marathon. Realistically, I was hoping for closer to 3:40 knowing my half PR is 1:40 and my 5k around 20:00.
I went out too fast, hitting 9k at 41:00. The legs were heavy by the half way mark, and I crossed around 1:51. The 3:40 pace group was still behind me though!
Until mile 15.
I stopped for water/food and the group trotted on by. I swore I'd catch up to them but never did. From then on out it was a slow steady decline. Walking up hills, dowsing myself in water, etc. Once I learned that the 4:00 pace group had dissolved and way off pace, I checked my watch and confirmed impending failure. I crossed, painfully, in 4:07.
And I hate myself for it.
I trained hard (not hard enough?), ran fast (not fast enough?) and tapered well (not well enough?)
So now I'm deciding between three choices:
1: Never run again.
2: Run a marathon June 12th
3: Enter another training cycle and try the full again in the fall.
I'm worried that I gave it all i had today and that still wasn't good enough to break 4, so why would 6 weeks from now be different, but on the other hand I do feel like I should be able to break 4 no problem.
WWYD?