In my sophomore year, I had a great track season. Practices were awesome, I was hitting good times, and even won a district title. But going back to track for my junior year, even though I’m putting in as much work into my workouts as sophomore year, I don’t feel prepared for a race. Going into my first race recently, I wasn’t nervous nor was I afraid of failure like if I didn’t care. I ended up not hitting a good time at all and finished like if I just finished a workout instead of feeling like I finished a race. Because of that my coach pulled me out of one of my favorite races. She believed I still needed work in order to race at that level. I was so disappointed with myself because I know I could’ve done so much better but I don’t know why once it came to a race I didn’t deliver. I know what I need to do and I know what I have to achieve but I don’t know why it seems impossible to hit those same times like last season. Everyone else on my team is moving on without me and even replacing me. I lost all hope, that I am not working as hard as my teammates or even worse that I don’t belong there anymore. I love this sport so much and I wanna see my coach proud not disappointed but how do I find that fire again?