i don't know what im doing. all i enjoy is running. but i dont even know where it comes from. i barely crack open my books. im a finance major but feel like ive barely learned anything. i went to the career center and took an interest test and I have an ISTJ personality type which is suitable for certain finance jobs, but i just dont have interest in things.
i guess i dont see myself being happy - maybe im not normal. i wish i could run professionally but i cant.
are there any jobs or pathways i could pursue to stay involved with running in some capacity. i have no unique skills.
i feel like im wasting my parents money in college right now. i might want to switch majors and then that means my business classes are wasted. i feel like crap, i want to be a normal guy but idk how.
i focus my time on fitting a run in. i look forward to a workout or long run during my week. i have a cool roommate but dont really know many people in college. it bothered me a lot last year but ive become kind of independent (or i guess more isolated). i get my classes done and make small talk but i dont really hang out on weekends. drinking doesnt interest me, my school is heavy on that.
my school's track team sucks, im not going to join. im wondering if i should transfer to run collegiately and maybe things would work themselves out that way.
more than anything though, i wish i just had a passion for something. i really dont have any interests. studying bores me, but i know im hurting myself by not doing so. sigh i feel so lost and i look to the future and dont see myself happy at a 9 to 5 job. i also dont see myself finding happiness in grabbing beers with friends, im not a typical football type guy. i wish i was but im not. idk what i like, im just a boring dude and that makes me worried for my future.