Frank Longer - Agreed. I made a mistake, I should not have started living with her. I learned my lesson with that one.
As far as dating a lot of other girls goes... The last time I was single, I tried this and I'm just not that type of person. Don't get me wrong, I hooked up with my fair share of girls but never wanted to date any of them. I pretty much know after hanging out with a girl once or twice if they are worth me pursuing. So dating a girl that I hooked up with that I know I don't really like is just not something I can do or want to do.
GettingReal - I don't know about 1.5 years ago, but maybe 1 year ago, when I started having these feelings I should have grown a pair then. But again, I was holding on to the fact that things could change.
Woohoo - I don't know if I agree with you here. I think it's fine to second guess myself, especially if it involves a big life change! Just because I'm questioning this decision doesn't mean it's not the right one.
Big Z - Again, don't know if I can agree with you. I don't have to settle. Especially in my situation. I am 25 yrs old and not married. Why settle right now? I don't want to get married anytime soon. And as I mentioned before, I consider myself down-to-earth and a realist. I don't have these fairytale/hollywood dreams of what love is. I have had what I think is love in the past and I refuse to comprise or settle for anything less. I do not see a problem with that.
Danilo Gutierrez - Not sure what this means. Please advise, thank you.
IMHO - I hear you. I don't think I limit myself tho. I think I just prefer women who run or are in shape in general and have similar qualities. Also, I said that i would be interested in girls that have my same passion for running but for a different sport. A basketball player fits that description.
I think she is a catch, but maybe just not for me. You may be right about the rough patch.
yetanotherotherchick - I know looks and 5k times go away. but similar interests, goals, values do not. I totally agree with your last paragraph. Thank you.
J.R. - Damnit man, your posts really make me think and I want to hear more. I agree with you about others making comments about breaking up bc im not attracted. Obviously, I am attracted to this girl or I wouldn't be with her in the first place. or even considering getting back together with her. Like you said, I am extremely confused.
"I had better feelings than this" means that I have had stronger feelings for another girl in the past. So this is what I relate love to. Yes, there are different levels of love out there and I can love different people in different ways. BUT, the way I love this girl doesn't warrant making the "next step" whatever that next step may be.
You bring up a good point about HER LIFE. If I were to do what's best for her and her life, I would stay broken up. Simply because I don't trust what I feel and I do not want to her anymore than I already have.
Why is she not the one? I DON'T EFFING KNOW!!! I want the majority of her qualities (attractive, runner, gets along with my family and friends, fun to be around, has goals, fun, laughs a lot, etc) in a girl, and want to check some others at the door (the insecurities, pestering/nagging me, the hi's and lo's bc i am very even-keeled, a slight immaturity, etc). I want all of her good qualities PLUS the feeling of being truly in love.
You are probably right about not know what I want. Maybe one day I will figure it out. Please explain more about the steep learning curve from this point fwd.
What is count out? I will count it up and a bit an post.