dr drey wrote:
To yetanotherchick, did your LD boyfriend eventually find out about you cheating? Did you lie to him and tell him "it wasn't you, its me...." Do you remain friends still? Does he now see you as a cheating lying 5lut who lead him along? Why were you thinking about only breaking up with him recently prior to cheating on him when you went so far as talking about marriage? I only ask these questions because I had a similar situation happen to me, a guy.
I never told him that I cheated because there was no point in hurting him more, and he probably never found out since he was not involved much with my college life (he was from my hometown). The main reason I broke up with him was because he was pushing for a formal engagement and I had realized for several reasons that I did not want to marry him, and I told him so. I didn't go into detail about all the reasons though, because I thought it would come across as an unfair litany of his faults.
Question. Obviously no one likes or believes the "it's not you, it's me" line, but how much explanation do guys really want for the reasons behind a breakup?
We're both cordial, but don't make any effort to keep in touch. Since he doesn't know that I cheated, I don't suppose he has any reason to consider me a slut, but he probably does think that I'm a lying heathen who led him along.
I went so far as talking about marriage with him because at one point, I thought that he was someone I could (or should) seriously consider marrying. I know that it may be hard to believe that the relationship was truly so serious when we were so young, but I came from a religious community where it was not at all uncommon for girls to marry or get engaged right after high school. There was definitely pressure to marry the right sort of Christian man and as a teenager it seemed like the path of least resistance, rather than go against the alignment of what was my entire world at that time.
I am not trying to defend myself as I think that cheating was wrong and not something I would do again. However, it was an immature choice over a typical college identity crisis when I was young, and not something that I believe defines me now.