After being glued to the TV like everyone else and trying to make some semblance of sense of it all, and to call loved ones and friends, I went on an 11-mile run over Poorman Road with Michael Sandrock--he's 43, I'm 40 this month. We are both sort of over the hill, so we started off easy, sort of talking about this along the lines like, 'Can you really believe this shit happened??'
But we both realized we needed to get our minds off of it and before long we were running fast enopugh that conversation was becoming a little more difficult. Soon the old competitive instinct kicked in and it became the fastest run, in race or training (I haven't really racesd in several years, he jumps in for fun), we had run all year. We really hammered it and must have been pushing 190 for HR.
We innately recognized at that moment in time, as runners, that running out the hurt and anguish of things beyond our control, and replacing it with a more familiar pain was the only immediate way we could get our minds off the pain of others, even if only for a moment. And when we got done with our run, we both felt better for a short time, gave eachother a sweaty shoulder pat, tapped knuckles, said to the effect of 'THAT was a good one---so I'll C-ya L8r brada', and that was it. What else was there to say? We both knew that whole event would creep, uninvited, back into our collective psyches within a few moments and stay with us forever, as is the case with the majority of us.
Just goes to show, all you can do is try to fulfill your life's promise, recognize it for the gift it is, and go on living.