I still love / obsessed with watching, listening and supporting all things Track and Field and running. I was a competitive runner in my teens at a UK County level. I am now 24 and when it comes to trying to train again i just dont have the mental energy to want to. I have been inconsistent and on / off like this for the last few years. I also feel like the effort and pain will be a waste of time now that i am no where near a standard of when i was young.
I wish weren't like this and i am always nostalgically reliving my running past with my memories and photo albums. It gets me down and sad that i no longer have the motivation and will power to continue mentally but I constantly think about running and racing again like i used to every time I put myself into retirement, which stops me moving on.