So, running has been less and less satisfying post-college as I've begun to have other priorities. I don't want to be a slob, but I've completely lost any intrinsic motivation. The only thing that gets me out the door is so that I don't get fat and so that other people don't see me as a loser. Also, the desire for decent race times. But I'm already pretty far off my PRs, and I don't see myself chasing fast, exciting times anytime soon.
I used to have that fire burning in me- the desire to beat others and test my limits. I don't have that anymore.
I also used to genuinely enjoy running on a spiritual and physical level. Running used to feel GOOD- I would get in the zone on runs and be able to process everything and come away with a sense of peace and satisfaction. Now, I can't get through a run without wondering when it's going to be over and focusing on the discomfort.
I have to train alone and in the dark before work now, and maybe that's affecting it.
But I'm a man of integrity, and I feel like it's not worth it to keep running when I don't have the drive to run anymore.
I'm considering taking two weeks completely off after my next race, then contemplating whether or not I want to go running again. If I don't, I will just use weight lifting and yoga to stay in shape.
Will I regret this in a year's time? Anyone who's done something similar recently who can speak on the subject?