Amenorrhea??? Stress fracture? Diet problems?

"because of how muscular I look instead of tall and lanky"

Have you considered the possibility that your are a Uceny, Rowbury runner instead of a Hasay runner?

Forget the x-country and miles slogging, and start running intervals, per the Gershler method, down on the infield. Your event very well could be the 1500m.

You definitely have a weak diet. Why no meat, fish, eggs? No rice or pasta? I eat protein, fruit and or vegetable and a carb with every meal 3x per day with healthy snacks in between. I also run less mileage on a daily basis than you. You should be worried about stress fractures and worse with your inadequate diet/caloric intake. Stop worrying about your weight and start focusing on your health and well being.

Agreed, your diet is not very good and could be part of the reason you still are not getting your period. Very little protein and fat. When I increased fat in my diet, I was able to get my period back. To be honest, it doesn't really sound like you are recovered from your eating disorder (trying to restrict, obsessed about your body/weight). You should stop focusing on numbers and race weight and put more effort into improving the quality of your diet and health so you can get your period back and have a long, injury free running career.

You still have an eating disorder, it has just manifested itself into running as a cover up. I can say that because I've been exactly there. If you are serious about getting healthy, you need to (1) take a break from running until you get your period naturally (2) seek professional help from a therapist and nutritionist. Also having been where you are, my former self would not have listened to this advice, but I hope you do. If you don't take care of yourself now, things will get worse. Stress fractures will be the least of your problems.

She does consultations and is very good. There are also other people who are good if you'd prefer someone else.

Learn to cook!

Seriously. You're in college; it's time to teach yourself. Cook Smarts is a good introduction to cooking - they give you a dinner meal plan for the week, ingredient list, and clear instructions on how to cook.

I'd also consider getting back into some therapy sessions. You recognize that you're having some unhealthy thoughts again. No shame in getting some therapy to help work through them.

You're probably right. I transferred to a school that now has track so we will see how things go. The 1500 and steeple were my main events maybe to try and be optimistic I can just stay positive and use XC as a prep for track if things don't always go my way with XC. Maybe if I learn to accept my body type I can do better in track.

I think I will get some therapy when I go to school and start competing. Luckily my new coach will be a female and maybe she'll be a big help. A lot of people attach a stigma to therapy and think it's only for nut jobs but everyone could use it. thanks

That is so true. I'll try to seek a therapist/nutritionist to stop this now. thank you so much