Last spring i had the opportunity to completly go after it. leave nothing to speculation. I jumped into mileage. I ran consistent moderatly high mileage (90- 100) for the first time ever, I did'nt limity myself anymore and i trained the way in which i would always have thought "someday i may train this hard....". A difference of opinion after a coaching change left me running mileage in the 50-60 range. Honestly i have felt subpar about this. Not towards the coach, but towards the effort. I felt like i was hurting so much on easy days that when hard days came i had nothing left. I grew stale. I saw no point to it. Recently i was given the chance to once again go after it, leave nothing to speculation, to finally train in a way that will have me believing that i am trying to be the best i can be. I am just glad to be able to go aftet it again in the way i know will work. to all of those out there going after it, all the way, that alone takes more determination and desire than anything else...its easy to want to win in a race...a race that youve run thousands of miles in simple preperation for. Im glad that i can train in the way that i know, if i break, itll not be because i was too weak, but because i simply had maxed out. It's good to be back.