vivalarepublica wrote:
I consider myself a borderline alcoholic because I drink almost everyday, and if I take a couple days off, I start to crave it. It's not just about having fun. It's just something I do when I am going about my day.
It's okay to be addicted as long as it's not having a negative impact on your life, not compromising your goals, causing regret. You reach alcoholic territory when you start experiencing negative consequences but continue drinking in spite of them.
I'm completely irrational when it comes to drinking. I know that 9 times out of 10 I overdrink and regret it. The 1 time out of 10 is when I either drink moderately or get drunk and accomplish something I wouldn't have been bold enough to so sober (e.g. get a girl's phone number). When I started drinking, it was the opposite: 9 times out of 10 I would have a good night. Somehow my percentage of good nights went down over the years. But for some reason that hasn't deterred me. It's like I'm waiting for something to "click" in my brain, expecting that I'll magically become a moderate drinker.