Running has been the most critical and influential part of the majority of my life. I've always loved to run/train/race and have never been able to picture myself losing that motivation.
I've been out of college running for a little more than a year now and had a great start to my road racing career. Since my last race in May I took a week off, then began training again for my first marathon this October.
Unfortunately however, this training bout has not gone well since the beginning. I haven't had any injuries or major hangups that have prevented me from running or doing my prepared training, but my head hasn't been it, nor has my body. Since beginning training again my body feels sore and beat up from every run, regardless of distance or type of run. I had high hopes of upping my mileage to the 90-100mpw range (previous high is low 80s) but have plateau'd at 70mpw because I simply can't get my body to accept the miles lately. Normally I love long runs and feel like I can burn up the entire day running if I'm on a good run, but this cycle I struggle beyond 12-13 miles and going into a long run I don't feel prepared for it. I've been doing everything as I have always in the past but for some reason dealing with a lot more aches and pains, nonetheless east coast humidity this time around.
Because of this, my head is really been out of it and questioning my motivation to continue in the sport, or at least postpone my first marathon. I recently began my career which doesn't have a major affect on my energy or time for training, but has also pushed me more toward wanting free time to relax, rather than feel pain and soreness from the run after work the day prior.
I know everyone goes through these phases and some come out on top while others call it quits, and I'm curious which factors got those who once felt so dedicated to running and training to decide to become hobby jogger-type and sub 18 5k runners. It seems that this should be such an easy decision for me to walk away from it, at least even for a short stint, but I mentally can't wrap my head around leaving something that has been merely apart of me for so long (even though it has caused significant strain on my social life).
Sorry for the boring backstory, just needed to get some off my chest too as I'm so stressed and finding it difficult to weigh the options.