I run for a smallish D2 school and am not all that great. I'm maybe 9th-10th on the team, running 9:30ish 3000 and 4:35ish mile. I loved running in high school, really loved it even. My freshman year I still loved it, and was doing much better than I am now. But my sophomore year I took off and did some other stuff that didn't allow me to train much. But I came back for this year (junior) and ran XC, mostly just getting back in shape. Towards the end of the season I was finally hanging with the front pack, and starting to feel good again. Then winter break came and I completely lost all motivation. Now I still dread going to practice everyday, and I can't wait till track is over so I can be done. But I'm just so miserable everyday and it's taking away from my schooling as well. That's my main focus, and I don't want to mess up this semester.
So basically I want some opinions. I sorta feel like i made a committment to my teammates and I don't want to let them down. But then again I don't really help the team, and I don't wanna be there. So??