hey brothers, just wanted to post an update to my original post. it's now september and today is my four month anniversary of becoming unemployed. i have gone on a shitload of the same bullshit headhunter interviews but nothing that remotely has uncovered a job in my field. its a combination of the industry being dead in the location i'm in and when an opening arises its like a piranha feeding frenzy.
so how did my summer go? well, i have collected $476 (net) every week (you do the math), which has paid for everything including some new furniture for the apartment and a short trip to washington. and how does it feel? the first month or so was GREAT, i got to catch up on lots of appointments and little things i had been neglecting and having time off was great, not having the stress of my job, etc.
THEN after about a month, i started to feel like, "okay, that was a great vacation" and feeling ready to go back to work. the realization that there was no job to go back to was severely depressing. i spent most of july and august running in the morning (admittedly its nice to have the time to do things like a proper cool down, stretch, etc and not be rushed) then sitting at the beach ALONE the rest of the day. it was very depressing reading facebook updates from friends who hate their jobs. it was a very boring and lonely summer.
something i didn't foresee was that the combination of boredom, depression, and running more (i was injured in the spring so i was getting back up to my regular mileage), led me to develop a pretty nice eating disorder for which i'm now being treated (yay COBRA).
so... unemployment. for my first experience i would say pretty mixed bag. there are times when the free time is awesome and irreplaceable, and its not bad to be on a "paid vacation". to be trite, the highs are high... but the lows are f'ing LOW. to any of you, i would avoid it if at all possible.
and to those who would say "oh just go get a job you lazybones" TRUST ME. I WISH IT WERE THAT EASY. I WOULD WORK AND GO OFF OF UNEMPLOYMENT IN A HEARTBEAT. however, not only does the economy blow right now but unemployment has pretty much shattered my self-confidence. i'm not sure i can even envision going on an interview right now and it's not getting any easier as the weeks go on.
sorry if this was really self-indulgent, but i wanted to share with you guys what its really like. good luck to anyone who might be going thru something similar.