bty wrote:
I believe that nothing exists independently from we perceiving it.
Truth. What is it but a strategy to allow for independent concepts in an "objective" world. I find truths, observations and formation of the noun that encapsulates the observation a necessary strategy to enjoy and differentiate life.
To questions, concepts, observation are all artifacts of subjectivity. The " I think therefore I am." might seem logical on one level; however, the way I see it, the final reduction is that subjectivity allows for existence as out there. One can not prove a negative, so out there is by nature
a logical fallacy.
I think, therefore there is an illusion of an I that thinks. A subjective I is not the same as an objective I in an absolute sense.
I can not prove the existence of anything other than that perception is true. Beyond that, how can I know anything.
This thought used to bother me, because this idea negates everyone and everything including "I am". It negates all whom I love and leaves a vacuity of nihilism and despair. It
prevents the notion that there is something larger than this encapsulated- is ness. I thought I was in hell as there is so much pain in life and that for all things there is a futility.
Is-ness is not oblivion( no- perception) and is obvious. I ask how can oblivion exist infinitely if there is now no oblivion. Oblivion has been interrupted, but oblivion assumes that subjective is-ness can not be perceived. Now it is and then what after this life? infinite oblivion. This
seems wrong as is-ness has been allowed to be, or should I say a default of a subjective universe?
So it used to bother me because I thought I was in hell, acting the part of Sisyphus, acting out life, gaining knowledge till death and for what? To restart this process life after life, infinitum.
It bothered me to the point I became devastated to the depths of despair that I never thought possible.
After a very long while, I realized nothing is independent or objective or real other than this is-nes. So the thought of hell and futility are merely artifact of is-ness and false. They sure seem real, and it hurts, but it is only that at the moment of belief. I now understand that reality that seems reality is at one moment, now. To have a belief that that the construct in is- ness is not real is a form of inoculation from a hell realm.
I now believe enjoy the good stuff and negate the existential bad as a strategy. Sometimes I despair, but not as much as I used to.
Kind of like watching a movie, I enjoy it, because it entertains. The exception is that the movie that plays out as life seems mailable by some artifact that believes I can shape its outcome sometimes.
That leads to a discussion about control. So control can either exist or not in a subjective sense, but considering the idea of absolute control, or determinism is not absolute and a topic that can not be discussed rationally as it is a paradox when argued as an objective truth.
Is-ness is. Awareness is on illusion and changes always. I am good and then I am bad. I am wise and then I am a fool. I am good looking and then ugly. I think I understand and then I am confused. Life shows itself as inconsistent and then it seems consistent and absolute.
All this thinkiing is making me tired. I better go out for a run and get back into the game. Is-ness is has advantage, 1 - nill, I better play well and keep the edge. There is allot riding on this game.