Being a lonely man is awful

travel abroad and meet your future wife there.

you cannot suffer as a white male.

You sound unhappy. Have you considered cheering up?

Stop being lonely then. Join a running club. Go to meetup groups for other activities, hang with friends from work, etc. This is a really easy problem to solve.

I would hit the bars meet some girls........wanna dance...worked for me. Get out start having some adventures. Big old world out there.

Of course at 35 you'll be meeting women not girls with kids, hmmm?

You parents might be around past the age of 100.

You are in for a looooooooooog ride.

Maybe you do some more running in the meanwhile.

you're probably attractive, OP is probably unattractive. You guys live in different worlds.

OP needs to listen to my advice: travel abroad and meet your future wife there.

I'm not unattractive. That's not the problem.

I hope they do live to 100.

I deferred a place at medical school for various reasons. Its not sensible, but I think putting all my time into that is the only way I'm going go push forward at this point even if its not right for me. It's not just about isolation from others, I just find everything so trivial.

Never wanted to upvote and downvote a post before until now

Time for new fitness. Good luck.

Hang in there. In few more years either Tesla or Bill Gates will make you an AI wife/sex bot.

Actually, if the OP is trying to meet women, taking some classes in salsa, two stepping, swing, etc. is a great way to do it. Take your group of friends from class out to a local place that highlights those genres of music, and you'll be amazed at how quickly a woman that wouldn't normally give you the time of day will say yes to an invitation to dance. Easy way to meet women, and a great way of getting over the anxiety that comes with fearing rejection.

You don't think you'll survive losing your parents, but you will. It probably seems like an impossible thought to you now.

What are you doing in your " spare time?" Are you in a running club? Volunteering? Religious affiliation? Cultural arts? Sports bars? Dance clubs?

It could always be worse. Just imagine if you’re married to a Instagram influencer whose entire existence revolves around creating snapshots of a perfect click-friendly lifestyle. In actuality, her extreme narcissism and shallowness leaves you in constant state of low self esteem and anxiety. Best to embrace your time alone and try to connect to God who will point your path towards Him and His purpose for your life.

Personally I don't find Asian women attractive.