That's cold! Sorry dude that sucks. It hurts bad now but it will pass. Just recognize that love and these feelings are instinct. Just BS made up by your body that you have to deal with. Imagine yourself above looking down at your body feeling these feels. They are seperate from who you are. Depression after going through the wringer is a normal thing our bodies do to us. Like catching a flu you're body will bounce back and you will feel better. Keep running and eating and sleeping and it will pass even faster! Plenty more cuties out there, don't be shy!