Sleep issues due to meets

Last year I averaged 2 hours of sleep a night during track season because I would work myself up with all this pressure before the upcoming meet. This year it's not as bad but before our first meet I didn't sleep a single minute because I couldn't stop thinking about it. And tomorrow we have one and again I can't sleep.
Last year it was excitement that was keeping me up. The workouts were showing I was going to finally pr after a few years of not doing so. This year idk what it is, maybe it's just the thought of having to toe the line again.
The thing is in doing so I leave myself feeling horrible when I show up to meets and make PRing next to impossible.
I'm honestly running out of desire to keep dealing with this, but I feel I haven't run fast enough for me to be happy with quiting. I picked my college solely on my desire to run there. My mile coming into college was a 4:46 and it's now a 4:34. I haven't PRed in the 5k bc of injuries or the 800. I just feel like there's so much left that I need to do but I'm standing in my own way because I can't sleep.
Has anyone else had this problem?

Yes! It's more common than you think. The issue is you're obsessing over not sleeping and the more you do that the more you won't sleep. The key is to say to yourself the night before a race "I'll run fast regardless of how much I sleep." Self talk is everything. I never really sleep much before races--maybe 3-4 hours
Tops. But I don't let myself think about it. I ran amazing races off of no sleep. And I ran D1 and am hoping for OTQ next go around. You'll be fine whether or not you sleep. Just keep your body Andy mind relaxed. If you google no sleeping before races or something along those lines there's some amazing articles looking at sleep and performance and those who sleep 0 hours vs 8 hours have identical performances, with all other factors controlled. Sorry don't have the link
At the moment. There's also great videos asking marathoners before a big race if they sleep and most of the pros--say not much at all--but don't really make a big deal of it. That's the key. Have fun and you'll be just fine!
~Mary