Last year I averaged 2 hours of sleep a night during track season because I would work myself up with all this pressure before the upcoming meet. This year it's not as bad but before our first meet I didn't sleep a single minute because I couldn't stop thinking about it. And tomorrow we have one and again I can't sleep.
Last year it was excitement that was keeping me up. The workouts were showing I was going to finally pr after a few years of not doing so. This year idk what it is, maybe it's just the thought of having to toe the line again.
The thing is in doing so I leave myself feeling horrible when I show up to meets and make PRing next to impossible.
I'm honestly running out of desire to keep dealing with this, but I feel I haven't run fast enough for me to be happy with quiting. I picked my college solely on my desire to run there. My mile coming into college was a 4:46 and it's now a 4:34. I haven't PRed in the 5k bc of injuries or the 800. I just feel like there's so much left that I need to do but I'm standing in my own way because I can't sleep.
Has anyone else had this problem?