I'm the kind of runner who struggles to maintain motivation when I get injured or depressed, and I'm currently in comeback mode from previous injuries. Once I'm fit I love running doubles, decent mileage and good sessions, but at the moment it's often a struggle to do more than say 3 hours of running a week spread over 4-6 singles. Thinking back to my best training and racing I think the overwhelming feeling was one of the inherent joy of running, feeling like I was running well (good style, fast etc.) and just enjoying running faster.
So I'm mainly trying to get back to that feeling, but recently a lot of people have been questioning my ability to comeback, and there's negativity from other areas in my life. It's made me think of that "running 800 on pure hate" thread, and while I reckon that can be useful, I think it's difficult to control anger, aggression and rage etc. Do you reckon it's better to just try to put these thoughts out of my mind, or to try to channel into aggression and use it as motivation to train hard? Just wondering, because when people were implying that I couldn't run certain times, or wasn't that good, I felt motivated immediately after and determined to prove them wrong, but it quickly dies down and hasn't had any long term improvement on motivation, but maybe has planted doubts in my mind.