Frustrated with how my life turned out

Ask Greg or Film Rep to take you in as a protege. You seem like a perfect fit.

You sound pretty young still. Lots of time to turn things around. Just make sure you make the best of your college years (if you haven’t already resolved that you’re done with it) so you find a good job. The social connection and relationship will follow from there if you work at it

How’s your osteochondritis and navicular tuberculosis and all that these days?

Yeah you sound really young, mid 20s? Many that age haven't even really started their life yet.

One thing I see you doing wrong is labeling yourself as inadequate or weird--but that reality is, every human has their flaws. You have the ability to work on your social skills and get therapy to alleviate the burdens you carry. Don't think you're not enough because you're not good at something. And again, if social skills are holding you back, the reality is that they can be easily improved with some dedication to improvement.You should work on showing self compassion and acceptance, first and foremost.

Many people in the world would gladly trade positions with you. You are young, full of potential, physically healthy. Start approaching what you have instead of dwelling on what you don't. Comparison is the thief of joy. Change your mindset.

Nobody remembers. We got our own problems.

U C.L.A., correct?

It is just so frustrating to see all of my peers be more successful than me

I have no clue what you are doing and studying. But try to get into a career that allows for a comfortable living. A nice house, a nice neighborhood and a nice car will make you feel great and affect your life overall. Imagine living all your life in an old tiny house in a bad neighborhood, you don´t want that.

Your life has barely begun and none of the high school/college experiences you’re fantasizing about ever really happen or have any lasting impact for most people.

Life is just going about your mundane day to day activities and trying to find brief moments of happiness. I run with a lot of weird people and they are all pretty welcome.

Miserable people who whine constantly are about the only people who are aggressively avoided (except criminals and predator guys).

So then why did I keep failing to accomplish the goals I wanted to achieve?

Are you the 'dick hurt in the cold morning' guy?

Look, you are just naturally not that social/popular of a person. That's ok. You blame sports but I had plenty of friends who never played sports who were very popular.

Instead of focusing on this fact and blaming yourself/others you should have just doubled down on academics. Become an expert in a research field. Be a totally committed and incredible medical student/doctor etc. Become a devoted volunteer organizer who fixes urban poverty in your region. Be so focused on coding that you can build the next wonder app etc...

And guess what...when you focus your efforts on those things you naturally make friends and connections. I fail to see how someone respected and admired in a field doesn't have some friends/get invited occasionally to events.

If you had just focused your time and efforts on helping others or building something great the rest would fall into place naturally.

Life is change, pain, and suffering. Happiness is internal and how you react to it. Let go of your attachments to the past and concentrate on the here and now.

Steve, you are the exact antithesis of Eliud Kipchoge. Where he is disciplined, ascetic, enormously accomplished, and believes that "no human is limited," you are dissolute, libertine, a gambler and supposed womanizer, and believe "every human has their flaws."

Kipchoge is wrong, of course, but his belief is hella useful.

I know people like you - You'll never chose to be happy

Because I will never be happy with what I done so far in my life

There is no better way to make yourself unhappy than trying to make yourself happy. Happiness is a by product of finding activities that are useful or meaningful, of developing relationships where you're generally interested in the well being of the other people, of learning about the world and yourself. If you aren't happy with what you've done so far in your life learn from that and do other things.