I came into the race looking to sub 21 because I worked hard on getting my mile time down into the 5:40s and I've consistently run 21 minute 5ks before. I got 24:xx. My worst 5k time ever to date. Heck I could probably run that time during any old run.
During the warm ups my quad tensed up. The first mile felt fine but fast. The second mile was where I started to lose it. A little after the 2 mile mark I slowed down, then I stopped and walked suddenly. The whole last mile was stop, start, stop, start.... Literally. I got to a point where 800m were left and I went under the course flags and came out of the race planning to drop out, but knew I had to finish. I was basically jogging down the last stretch and my team was enthusiastically cheering for me. Now I'm super embarrassed and have zero confidence for the next race. I don't even want to face my team again.
I'd been feeling terrific during runs/workouts. Yesterday didn't feel good but I just chalked that up to be being tired. I don't know what happened at all. I think I just mentally psyched myself out. I would be fine with a minute off my PR but 3.5 WHOLE MINUTES slower? I was in so much pain, too. I've been crying all night like a baby. It's not that I'm in it to win or score or anything, it's just I thought I was better than that, but now I don't know. I don't want to put myself through that pain again. Now my teammates are going to think I'm terrible.