It's all so frustrating. I find myself even more upset by how she has doubled down on this false narrative of hers. Because I can understand the motivation to dope. When you're trying to be the best, when your goal is the Olympics, and your competing against world athletes who are likewise doping, and when your livlihood is on the line, choosing to dope yourself can seem like the only choice. I don't like or approve of it, but I can understand it. I could be prepared to forgive, if Houlihan had said, "Yeah, I did it. Because I wanted to be the best I could be, and in this sport, the way you do that is by doping, because cheating is so rife at this point, you either choose to dope too, or your accept you'll always be second best." She might even have remade herself as an advocate for greater change in the sport. Because maybe we're to the point where we need to accept doping as a reality, and establish a framework for its inclusion in the sport. I don't know, just thinking aloud here.
But the way she blames everyone else, casts herself as a victim, as a martyr, just infuriates me. It's clear she's a pathological liar, and a narcissist who will manipulate those around her. The way she has obfuscated the narrative.
Because it doesn't even matter why she had nandralone in her system, or what the intent was. Even if she HAD somehow gotten it from that tainted burrito, it's still her own fault, because at that level, you simply cannot take those kinds of risks. It's on you, the athlete, to know what you put in your body, just like it was on Sha'Carri Richardson to know that, as harmless as marijuana is, it's still a banned substance, and she shouldn't have been using it. There are elite athletes who will bring their own food when they travel, so they can know precisely what they eat, because the risks are so high, the consequences so great, if one ingests tainted food or drink or a supplement, gets a positive test result even for entirely innocent reasons.
If Houlihan had owned up and accepted her punishment, I'd be all for her getting a second chance. I might even be for a reduced sentence so she might have a shot at an Olympics in 2028. But as is? I'm glad for what she got, because it's a career ender. Because she doesn't deserve to be a part of this sport.