Thanks for the responses. I had no idea this thread would go this far - and I don't think it should have. Sorry if this seems like trolling - but I did get a lot of solid advice here.
1. Does your wife want to be happy? If she is not seeking happiness, you have a right to seek your own.
Her idea of happiness, as I explained earlier, is two kids, a large home, nice car, easy job, american dream...you get the idea. She is trying to make this all happen sooner rather than later, whereas I want to move slowly and resolve our issues NOW. She doesn't grasp that this is a process. She is jealous of her co-workers because they have these things and we don't. I can live with very little, whereas she needs a "summer home" to feel fulfilled.
2. Does she call you "weird" and "sickly looking" in a serious, mean way? If so, I can't imagine that you can have a relationship with someone who has such contempt for you.
She has said these things. To elaborate, she once said "if you'd gain a little weight I'd probably be more inclined to have sex with you". I found that hurtful. She doesn't understand that I'm actually in really great shape...and if she'd attend one of my 8am races she'd see that I'm not the skinniest guy toeing the line.
1. You say you were together for 2.5 years before the marriage. What was the frequency of intercourse during this time? Was it vigorous on her part? Was she initiating? Was she enjoying herself?
As with most relationships in the beginning, we had sex quite often. Maybe 4-5 times per week? She was a happy, energetic person, maybe wrapped up in the thrill of a new relationship. The sex came to a end three months before we actually got married. Being devout Catholic, she felt some guilt regarding the whole "sex before marriage" thing and we practiced abstinence up until our wedding night, which was just huge contradiction in itself. After our honeymoon in May of 2009, she did not have sex with me until August or September of that year. She claims she has no sexual desire but I tend to think that if I would die today and she finds a man a month from now, sex would be a priority. I'd be stupid to think anything otherwise.
2. If you have truly had intercourse only 10 times in the 2 years of marriage, that is insane. That is not healthy or normal. If true, that statistic by itself, with no other information, is enough to condemn the situation.
I can honestly say it's been about 10 times.
3. How do you handle this shutoff? Do you watch pornography? Do you seek sexual contact outside the marriage? Are you masturbating regularly? How frequently have you been ejaculating during these 2 years?
I think with amount of running I do, the amount of hours I work and my other hobbies, I can fill that void. I have not cheated on nor communicated with any other women during my entire 2 years of marriage. I have not been approached by other women which has thankfully made everything less complicated. I have no desire to cheat. As for my wife, I'm pretty sure that she is not cheating on me unless she is with someone on her lunchbreaks. Otherwise, I watch her leave at 7:45am for work and she's home by 5:15pm. She has no social life.
4. Acknowledging that we are hearing only your side of the situation, she sounds like a nightmare.
Try being trapped in car with her on a road trip when she's on one of her tirades.
Frankly, the situation sounds so one-sided, I wonder if you are leaving out facts.
My biggest problem is that I tend to march to the beat of my own drum. In the beginning of our relationship, I was quite poor in communicating with her - returning texts, telling her when I'd be home from work. I would just do things on my own because I was single for so long and was used to my usual routine. She found this infuriating and I've changed my ways. I also tend to hold feelings in for a long time and then let them all come out at once, which isn't very good either, especially if we are arguing.
I'd also like to add that I really hate the fact that I'm going to hurt her family if I file for divorce. I've developed a nice bond with her parents and they've really helped us along the way. Her father is a tough man who didn't like any of the boyfriends she brought home until I came along. It will be VERY hard dealing with the probable contempt they'll have for me.