IzzySophia01 wrote:
No worries. I'm not sure entirely why I felt like I had to, and I think that's the problem. I wanted to be a better runner, I wanted to be fitter, and back then I hadn't done any reading into the correct way to train so thought I'd get super good by hammering myself a few times per week. I didn't think I was supposed to enjoy it. I did it back then because I always felt good afterwards because of the endorphin rush, but only afterwards. I was studying for my exams at the time which caused me stress which I transferred to sport, but not in a healthy way.
I think I just wanted to be good at something, and thought pain was necessary.
Afterwards I did some reading, tried to improve my relationship with sport and realised it should be a hobby and should be enjoyable. I slowed down mostly, and I have done workouts that I have liked since, but the anxiety from that time in my life remains before I attempt something even moderately hard and I've forgotten how to listen to my body.
Has this thread helped? Have you let go of the feeling that you need to do hard workouts even if they make you fairly miserable?