As someone who has been sober for over 23 years after being a drunk for at least half that long, I like checking in on this thread from time to time. A few pages back I saw something that really made me think. It went something like "No one quits after a long drinking career and thinks, 'Man, those last few years were really the best part of drinking' It's the opposite"
I dabbled with quitting for at least 5 years, knowing I would have to do it someday, but just not ready for it to be today. I didn't have the perspective to realize that I was paying more and more and getting less and less from each month of delaying the breakup. If you're there, maybe try looking at it that way. Looking back now, I wish I had.
It's hard to understand why we continue despite knowing the time will arrive to quit
As someone who has been sober for over 23 years after being a drunk for at least half that long, I like checking in on this thread from time to time. A few pages back I saw something that really made me think. It went something like "No one quits after a long drinking career and thinks, 'Man, those last few years were really the best part of drinking' It's the opposite"
I dabbled with quitting for at least 5 years, knowing I would have to do it someday, but just not ready for it to be today. I didn't have the perspective to realize that I was paying more and more and getting less and less from each month of delaying the breakup. If you're there, maybe try looking at it that way. Looking back now, I wish I had.
It's hard to understand why we continue despite knowing the time will arrive to quit
It's the amazing power of self-delusion. "This time will be different!" I've learned from experience that I am NOT a moderate drinker, or anything else... Now I just need to remember it.
I've been binge drinking a long time and the lows keep getting lower until there's only 2 ways you can go. Recovery from addiction or death.
Living with suicide loss doesn't help the lows but there's a lot have to do the same
Sorry for your loss. I was literally days away from death when I stopped. I hope you can get to a meeting or rehab if you need it. You can get sober too