How's this for a problem wrote:
This is gonna be quick and choppy, as I'm at a bar. I have been drinking for 18 years. Im 33. I have been drinking heavily for 6 years. Heavily to me is every day. More than 10 drinks per day.
Here is my real problem. I'm married. I make a good living. I budget incredibly well. I can completely black out and, apparently, act like an extremely nice, helpful person. A war story: had pre dinner drinks with wife's family. Went to dinner with them, and drank. Went to friends engagement party and drank. Met wife's extended family at another bar, and whilst completely unconscious ; paid the bill, called an uber for them, poured them into it, called an uber for me and the wife and got everyone home safe and happy. Woke up in my parents in laws house with little to memory thinking I was in the dog house. Wife rolls over and says "I love you so much, you took care of my family and were so cute during our uber home telling me you love me".
I never wake up with a hangover. I mean never. I can drink a bottle of red wine. Several beers. 3 shots of whisky. Top it off with some vodka and sodas. I wake up fresh as a daisy and go work my butt off 6 days a week.
There is no rock bottom. I'm not drinking myself poor. I'm blacking out and no one notices. I feel great and am the happiest go lucky guy you can find
I'm not trolling, and I'm not bragging, I am actually at a loss as to what I'm "supposed" to do. "This will kill me at some point", is how I try to rationalize a reason to stop, but it ain't working.
Any thoughts?