I Always cook myself. Have not eaten out I Cant remember How long. This way I eat healthier and of course.i can count all the xalories I EAT. I make myself bread every moening from organic Wholegrain flour，Then Ieat grains again at Lunch and dinner. I Dunno who said carbs make you fat. They are my the safest foods for me，But I would never eat Red meat and those meat Based dishes not for me.
Yes I have no passion. Running is my only passion. Cyxling is my number two，taking the Sun，looking at the Night sky and be outdoors Thata what I like to do. But Nothing compares To running.
Sure But 22 years old.is.not old. I have seen people much older than me Running. Its like soft tissue But It disappears during running thank God. It only returns a day After or so.
No at the moment I am running pretty good. I meant a few months ago when I restricted much more the Food I felt weakeR. I just had to learn That there was no choice But eat more if I wanted to run the distances I wished. I dont care How unlovable I Feel because of my weight. As lomg As I can run I dont care. I will continue to carbo Load until Sunday when I will take my long run in the outback.
And Yes I love to travel But I have the luck.to live in the country. I moved Here and Ita the best decision I Ever made. I hate cities and Feel So much better Here in the mountains. To be honest I am just thinking about my next Run. i Cant stand Life without running.
And Yes I Cant stand That bit** in the gym.
I know this sounds harsh.
You are living with this now. But eventually, your body is going to break down to the point where you are going to be so sick or so hurt that you will not be able to exercise.
It may not happen now, but it will happen. How are you going to handle this? You have so much of your life ahead of you and imagine that life without being able to run or bike at all.
I want to tell you I'm really glad that you made sure you're eating enough to run, but like moanswers said, running like this really isn't safe. I'm sorry, I know it isn't what you want to hear, but when you have some sort of recurring pain that isn't soreness, it's an issue that probably won't resolve itself. A possible reason that the pain disappears when you run isn't that it's getting better; your body releases chemicals when you run that make pain less noticable, but whatever is causing the pain is still there. My friend had this problem with her shins when she was undereating/anaemic, and she ended up with a stress fracture that kept her from running for three months. Things that seem like soft tissue injuries are sometimes actually inflammation from other types of injuries that don't become obvious until it's too late. The best thing would be to listen to your doctor. I know this isn't what you want to hear, but if you do what they tell you, you'll heal pretty fast; otherwise you might get hurt worse. At the very least you should decrease the amount of exercise you do, but if you're not willing to do that you might consider doing some cross-training (biking, swimming, weightlifting, etc.) that puts a lot less stress on your legs while still being exercise (and cross-training actually really helps with running). So for example if you were planning to run 6 miles but you have the pain again, you could bike 6 miles instead so you still get a workout but you're less likely to seriously hurt yourself. This isn't to say continuing exercise with an injury a good idea, because it really isn't; if your doctor is giving you instructions on how to treat your injury, please listen to them. Right now you have a choice of taking a day or two off now to recover or taking weeks/months off later when the injury gets worse. Please at least consider taking a rest day. Your performance actually improves if you take rest days regularly because you recover more completely. I'm sorry if this comes off as rude - that isn't my intention, I just want to make sure you're aware of what can happen if you continue to exercise and ignore pain.
Also, I saw on one of your posts before this that you said you were going on a run in the outback by yourself without food or water. I'm sure you're aware, but this is extremely dangerous. If you get hurt or lost without food or water, the situation could get very bad, very fast; this is an especially important point since you said you keep having pain. If you're planning on drinking from lakes and rivers, you need to be sure you purify the water properly because if you don't you can get extremely sick. Going with a partner and bringing at least a few water bottles is always a good idea. If you aren't willing to do this (but it is VERY strongly recommended that you go with someone else and bring supplies just in case something goes wrong), you need to tell someone where you're going and when you'll be back. This way, if you aren't back by the time you specified, they'll know that they need to look for you. This is especially helpful if you have a specific path/trail you're planning to run on. Please be careful - at the very least, make sure AT LEAST one person knows where you are and when you'll be back.
Again, I'm sorry if this sounded rude. I'm just worried because I've seen similar situations get really bad and heard stories that didn't end well. Like you said, running really is great; please take care of yourself and stay safe so you don't get hurt.
I remember long ago there was a point I believed Life As beautiful and umbreakable when It really isnt.
I know That I am not stupid. I rested more than two weeks at the origin of my injury，I dont know if Its my fault，if its because I didnt eat enough because I was So afraid to get fat when I was injured That I really Did not eat normal. I dont know.if its That or.if its whatever reason But It didnt heal So I started running again. Its months now thst I run with this pain. And if its not for that，It means I Cannot even eat because I am not eating if I Cant Run. But Thats not the main reason I do It evn tho It feels pretty good to eat.
I already know that，my Doctor explained That to me and I was So pissed That I went for a 15km. run，Then 10 the next day，Then 12 the next when He told me again to Rest for two weeks. I have tried long ago to rest for two weeks ... long ago of course its not gonna Go away.
I can just say It feels thousand times more painful tHe pain of not Running. And about the bike both two doctors said I shouldnt do it.
cycling is Nothing Anyway compared to How It feels to move Your body So freely. Nothing.
Only the thought of taking a Rest day Today because of my work shedule makes me wanna starve. I will not get fat today. I am not running Anyway So I dont want to eat . A bean Salad will do. It makes me Feel better about not running But I will miss to eat pasta So much today. I will eat So much protein I wont even be hungry to eat enough.
Yeah, biking isn't the same as running, I can't argue with that. But sometimes you have to do things you don't like in the short term so that you can do what you want in the long term. Taking a rest day today is a really great idea, even if it doesn't feel like it right now. Eating on rest days can be hard, but it really makes them much more effective. Pasta is actually good for rest days too, so if you want it, give yourself permission to have it. You probably already know that the mindset with eating disorders is the hardest part to deal with. It's hard to ignore the negative thoughts, and even if you can ignore them you aren't really dealing with the problem, just ignoring it. Changing how you think is obviously really hard. One of the things I found really helpful with this was thinking about eating like I was giving the food to someone else, if that makes sense? Like if I was hungry I would ignore it, but if I was taking care of a sibling and they told me they were hungry I would give them food, so I started sort of treating myself like I would treat someone else. It's weird but it helped. Thinking about eating for performance like you said you're already doing is also really good.
No matter what you do, it's going to be hard at first, but if you don't change your mindset it will be really hard to get better. It's sort of like running; the first time you start running it's really hard, but if you keep it up you get so used to it you don't even have to think about it. It's the same way with not thinking so much about food. If you push yourself to stop counting calories and things like that, eventually you won't even think about it. It probably won't change right away but if you stick with it, you'll get it. Maybe you could try picking one day a week you don't count anything? Or if that's still kind of a big step right now, maybe just pick one meal a day you don't count. You have to learn to trust yourself; your body knows when you need to eat and when you've had enough food to be safe, and "enough" doesn't always mean "not starving." There are lots of ways your body can tell you it needs more food, like if you're really tired or have a headache or *if you have some sort of injury that won't go away.*
This isn't easy and I'm so sorry you have to struggle with it, because you don't deserve to have this problem. Have you tried asking your doctor if there are certain exercises that they would be okay with you doing? There's a type of workout my old team used to do where we would go in the pool but instead of swimming we would "run" in the water at the deep part of the pool, so it's like treading water without your arms (you stay near the wall so you can get out if you get too tired, and you can do the "running" part with a life vest if you want to because it doesn't make it easier). It sounds dumb but it's actually really hard. The best part is that it's basically no-impact, since you float the whole time. In any case, awesome job taking a rest day today; you might not like it but you really do need it and I'm proud of you for doing it. I hope your day gets better soon (and your leg)!
you must be miserable to live with, dude. will you please just eat? how difficult is it to open your gob and stuff some food in there?
I am Actually amazed How people （like you） can stand me，because I Cant myself stand myself and my own stubborness.
I know How It feels and I would not tell my friend with an ED （I Actually have one and Feel So guilty because I Feel I am triggering him with my behaviour） to just eat because I know They are not gonna listen to me and anyone. I mean I wouldnt.
While I have recovered to a healthy weight just above underweight still I dont think It really goes.away in the mind if you know what I mean.
You Probably understand me because you said you have struggled with disordered eating？
I would Pack a lunch，a big cup of beans with two tomatoes It tasted So bad not even olive oil I would put on some days. No salt. Yesterday I counted two spoons of olive oil，few grains of salt Since It adds taste with no calories Then I said if I change my mind or Feel So down and want to eat calories I also Pack the Wholegrain bread I made myself at Home （So I know there is no added sugar）.
So cut the piece.of bread into small pieces and bring It to work.
I drank So much coffee，about 8 cups of expresso. I hate the taste. I even ate Breakfast But I was So hungry That I would Try to be alone As much As possible because I was unpleasant to be around. Its like I Cannot think anything when I went to the grocery store to buy Apples fruit and vegetables I forgot the Apples there in front of me.and I am So pissed because They are one of my Staple Foods and Cannot snack if I dont have them.
And While I have the motivation to eat up to my needs when I run I just dont on rest days and I still Somehow restrict even tho not As bad As before.
Cant the body just use fat to heal？
Yes I know Its Probably Welcome for my body a Rest day，but I Cannot put into words How bad I felt yesterday. You get That feeling when you just wanna get out of Your skin？ I have long used exercise to purge calories （I dont anymore exercise for That purpose even if I still think about burning calories when I do），It allowed me to eat like a normal or even a BIt more while still losing weight. I would run on a fasted state for 30 hours without Food a few months ago and eat complex carbs only on run days.
Otherwise only salads and fruits. Now I wouldnt do it. That part of me understands.
But I miss to Run，and no my Doctor didnt allow me to do other activities which I dont care about what He says Anyway just because He is a doctor.
The lakes are frozen I Cant swim now，Otherwise in Summer its amazing to swim Here in the lakelands breathing the forests.
I would say I should Probably take a hike next weekend，Go Deep down into the wilderness in a place I dont want to See anyone. I wanted to Go to the southern road running and I Hope I will be better By then. Its not right，I See 80 years old people running in here，why Cant I do that without pain at 22 years old. Its not right.
It is better compared to before and whiLe its ture I asked for advice on this forum I just Cant succeed every day.