Can't believe I'm posting this on LRC but what the heck
Essentially I'm bored out of my mind with my life. Every day is like Groundhog Day. Wake up in the dark, quick coffee if I'm lucky before getting the kids to school., work at the same desk doing the same things I've been doing for the last nearly 15 years all day (sometimes I'm lucky enough to get a lunch break ), pick kids up, with a bit of luck squeeze a short run in on my own if it's not too dark, help with evening meals and chores, get the kids to bed, collapse in a heap, and then repeat.
I used to be a national level runner (not in US) but now I'm mid 40'S and it's an effort to drag myself around a 3 mile jog. Can't believe it when I see masters my age still crushing it. I've lost nearly all motivation, am tired all the time, and don't enjoy it much any more which is a real shame as I have so many great memories of my time in the sport.
We live in a very rural community with no family within 100's of miles, and social life is non-existent.
I'm on a low dose antidepressant which has helped with anxiety, but obviously can't change life situations. On paper I have a really good job. I'm well qualified and paid, but after a few years it's become a drag. I'm not really qualified to do anything else either.
How can I get get the old excitement for living back?