I achieved my dream of qualifying for the 2020 Olympic marathon trials 1.5 years ago. It was the race of my life and was even on a tough enough course where the idea of sub 2:15 has been on my mind ever since. I haven’t done much since due to some injuries but now I’m just flat out out of motivation. The biggest race of my life is four months away, I’m healthy, I have plenty of time to train, but I’m constantly missing runs, eating crap, and allowing myself to get more and more unfit.
In the last year I have discovered an amazing career that I am deeply passionate about and fulfilled in. I’m highly motivated within it and genuinely love it. I think my identity shifting towards this career is taking motivation away from running. I just don’t see why I can’t do both, especially since I have the time for both and immense support of those around me to do both.