Serious post, and not a person who opens up in general..so bare with me.
I am a sophomore at a well-known Division 1 College for XC and Track.
I have always found it easy to make friends in high school and earlier days than that, but in college I feel as if my injuries and not being able to run since my senior year in HS, have made a barrier for me connecting with the other guys on the team.
Even though my teammates think we are good friends, and close, I do not think so, so much so that I would never tell them or even show if I was upset/"depressed."
I am a generally very likable person, and also a very happy person, who is always cracking jokes or being liked by others, even girls.
I have found it difficult to make friends on the team and get truly close with my teammates. I have also found it difficult to get close with a girl, because those interested in me I've already pushed away due to me not liking them, or me feeling as if they can't help make me happy.
I am not a very outgoing person around strangers, and the only people I know are the people on the team or within athletics.
I do really feel that a girlfriend or even just talking remotely serious with a girl would truly help take my mind off of all this, but I have found it difficult to approach anyone I would want to get to know, due to rejection and due to already feeling depressed / unhappy with my current situation. Also, I don't even know where to start or who to start with.
I have been struggling in running, classroom, social life, etc. and really not a person who fails at any of those things so it feels extremely out of place for me. I definitely need some kind of boost, and not a person who has ever felt like they needed a girlfriend, but for some reason I feel that is extremely important for my happiness that I find one, especially one who I like (very picky).
I was hoping to get some good advice, because I wouldn't be the type of person who would ask for it, especially in person, unless it was close friends or family back home, which know I am not doing very well in college so far.