I ran in 8th grade. Did XC and Track. I was even a captain. However, i chose to focus on Basketball in highschool until sophmore year. I should not have done this because i was cut from the team both years.
Xc/track is such a fulfilling sport. So much better than any other sport in the world. I joined xc/track junior year and senior year.
I know i shouldn't live in the past but i cant stop thinking about it. I wake up everyday and that is the first thing that comes to my mind. I can't get past it. I also feel like my journey as a runner was just beginning, and it doesn't feel over yet. Everyone else on my team who did it for 4 years feels content. But i feel incomplete.
How do i get past this? I would do anything in the world to just go back and make a better decision.