We were friends with benefits for months and kept things very light, then we started spending more time together and realized we liked each other. She wanted more, but I hemmed and hawed and she finally just ended everything. She said she wanted a relationship and implied some other guy had taken interest in her. Though I knew I liked her, I didn't realize how much until she "dumped" me. It actually really bothered me a lot. I can usually leave girls without a care, but this time was different. I've hooked up with a number of girls since, and every time I just miss this one.
We both live pretty far from our parents and both have kind of messed up families, so neither of us are spending Thanksgiving with them. She predicted this and invited me to join her for a Friendsgiving (a Thanksgiving dinner with 5 or so friends in similar situations). I am trying to decide whether to go. On one hand, I miss her, and I would be curious to see how it would go, but on the other, I feel like I'm still kind of hurting and don't want to open up the wound if she's trying to work some angle to make me her "friend." I definitely do not want to just be friends, at least not at this point. But why would she be inviting me to join unless she's single? She is NOT devious or manipulative at all and is a very good-hearted person, so I know she's not trying to play games. That is one reason why I liked her so much; she's genuinely a good person.
What are your thoughts on this?