I feel empty.
Right afterwards I was happy. Then I started feeling like I could've done better. Now I'm just wondering how I spent 4 years dreaming of a moment that now seems so insignificant.
I know some of you are going to say running is about the journey, but if the journey is setting goals and then feeling like crap after achieving them what kind of journey is that? I know some will say "alot of people would love to be in tour place" and "Just enjoy it you did a great job" but I really feel no enjoyment, no pride. I even feel like maybe I don't even deserve it. I barely got it and some people I beat didn't run nearly as well as they could have.
Please tell me this isn't what racing is about.