I ran on teams consistently for 7 straight years, then my life kinda imploded a bit and I got depressed and quit, etc. etc. I haven't consistently run at all in a year, maybe ~10 times at random points. I miss it and want to start doing it again because it helps with my ADHD and meds are expensive, but also I keep screwing up every routine I try to set because ADHD is fun like that and I'm not sure how to fix it.
I've already tried setting calendar reminders, multiple alarms, leaving running clothes out before I go to bed so it's easier to just do it the next day, signed up for a race ~3 months from now to hope that would force me to commit to running, and none of it works because when I go to run, I get the same "brain no want work today >:(" feeling of being "stuck" that I get when I try doing homework without meds and then I sleep for the entire day instead of doing literally anything, then get mad at myself for not doing anything.
Long story short I'm kind of dumb, any ideas of how I can undumb or at least reduce my dumb?