I realized i have had so much potential wasted in high school, it wasn't until a year ago i realized 90% of hs coaches just use a pigeon fits the hole system based on there own career. I happened to come from a low mileage low intensity program where the only way to actually to show your talent is to literally train on your own and know what your doing. Maybe an absolute genetic freak who is on his way in 5 years to beating the wrs could do well off of it. This cross country season i ended up doing everything right, i was ranked top to have a shot at being state champ, i was hitting PRs that others would have never thought was possible, yet they kept throwing me under the bus, telling me to stop trying so hard at practice because they were jealous and insecure and were trying to bring me down with them, basically all my teammates were stuck in the 17:30s and i was a low 15:20s guy. The only reason i improved from 17:40s to low 15s is because of secret mileage and actually something called training the right way. It wasn't until end of season where they were acting all nice and lovely and deceived me into stopping my own strengths with the "taper, you won't gain any more fitness trick". It was my first year with success and i didn't want to come across as a ahole so i gave in and ended up bombing regionals. It was silence afterwards for a while and i could just tell by how the secret haters around me that they just seemed extremely fake and suspicious by the way there body language and behavior was. I was so mad for a while afterwards and was seriously thinking about running on my own for the rest of the year. I am a very nice, probably too nice but i just believe in forgiving people no matter what so i was the bigger man and showed up to all voluntarily training which tbh is mostly so you can have someone to talk to while running, (im extremely introverted, and where i live people do not like that) so i honestly prefer to do things myself but sense i was a senior and had to show commitment to the team or i would be shamed if i didn't show up. People were all the sudden alot nicer to me, people weren't acting so passively aggressive towards me, less late so i was thinking that we can finally be a team for once. So i continued my usual outside of practice training and what i was beggining to see is my coach was having my teammates start doing the stuff i was doing like more mileage which he was against for so many years, which i was glad because now were on getting on the same page and he was willing to accept his mistake. So pretty much everything from here on out relationship wise it was great. I ended up getting fast prs for track, 1600m, 800m. The plan was now to work on speed so i was doing tons of anaerobic work over and over again like 400m and 200m repeats which i thought was the key component to getting faster at these distances. However i started noticing my regular runs, long runs and tempos were way slower than usual for some time and i thought that would be normal for some reason when training in shorter distances. However i started noticing my races started getting horrible and my legs were feeling dead and i ended up getting a injury and i don't know how, i wasn't training harder than XC season and i was burnt? I took over 1 month and im still stuck with this injury. I did lots of research and i realized the correct way how i should have been training all along, i realized had i would have been applying my knowledge of training 4 years ago i would have been a low 14:00s kid possibly with a future like nico youngs. I will say there are a lot of weird things about me that people don't understand around me. I was often put down, people where i live just throw me in under the bus constantly and i don't blame them, the way how i think, behave and how im physically built is not bad, but it's not what people would see as usual. So im often neglected and bellied around me for this. I often have unique ideas that no one understand or comprehend because it's out of there line of rational. The issue is im extremely dumb, as you can see by how long im typing trying to make my points but i have very good rational that others don't even see because it's to complex. Because of this i think it is best not to go to college and train by myself, i know for a fact as long as i don't loose my legs or something happens i have a strong chance in making running a successful career. I have the knowledge, willpower and talent. Im not saying this to boast but im saying that what i have is enough for me to achieve my dreams and because im introverted and have very bad social intelligence, but god given intelligence in other areas i think it is best to follow my gut insticts and not societal constructs.