So first off, I'm 32 and have been running for almost 3 years now. Here are my PB's for reference. 21KM is 1:40, 30KM is 2:36, and marathon is 3:54.
This past Sunday, I did a virtual marathon with the intent of getting a 3:45 PB, the PB that I was going to aim for at the cancelled Toronto Marathon a few weeks earlier. To say that I failed would be an understatement. I humilated myself. The heat killed me, it was very hot and it took all my energy early in the run. I finished the marathon but with my worst time BY FAR at 4:37. Fucking horrible. I was so severely dehydrated and had heat stroke by the end. I was an idiot that day/
My confidence in my running was already going down prior to Sunday. Covid-19 has really done a number on my self esteem and motivation and I can't even explain why just yet because I am still figuring it out. I really want to get better with my running again and ensure that a failure like Sunday never happens again. I am open to any and all feedback and critcism because I need to hear it all. I WANT to get better as a runner, not just physically but mentally too.