I've been with the same DIII team for four years now and this past year I have a feeling that my coach may be preventing me solely from going to some of our bigger and faster meets. This started this past XC season where I was a solid 3 or 4 man in every XC race although when it came down to the 5k time trial at the end of the season I was part of a three man race with the 8th and 9th men on the team to determine the final spot to the final spot on the Regionals team? Everyone on the team questioned this and in the time trial I won by a large distance as expected. I wasn't ever worried about my place on the team before this because like I said, I averaged around a 3.5 finish on the team throughout the season.
In Indoor Track my coach took a small group of people to the BU Valentine Invitational and he decided to take two of the sophomore milers who have only run slower than me all season up to this point. When I confronted him about it he said it was due to an issue with my ranking in the region in the mile which didn't exactly make sense. Even at Boston my teammates still ran slower times than I had run this season.
Coming into the end of indoor track it was down to three people fighting for two spots in the mile at our League Championships. I have the fastest mile time of the three people by about three seconds but he is putting in the two people right behind me in the race this weekend! If they both beat my time I will be out of the Leagues and it will be totally out of my control. I've beaten both of these guys in every workout/race this season. I dont mean to bash them because they are wonderful people and great runners I just feel like the person who is fastest should go to the league championships and I'm unable to show how fast I've gotten this weekend. I have also qualified in the 800m by time but my coach says that I wont race in that event at Leagues because I have only run it once this season. I've bargained with my coach to put me in but he says I need another week off anyway. (I've taken two weekends off already this indoor season). I would hate to end my season because of something I can't control.
I hate to sound like I'm complaining here but this has been stressing me out and I just want to show him that I can run fast :( The only reason I think he would be singling me out is because some people refer to me as a stoner because of the clothes I wear and my piercings/tattoos. My coach is a very straight-edge christian and I can see how these things wouldn't go against his views although I make sure to not smoke in season, I've never had a violation with the ncaa drug abuse policy. I just wanted to get my story out there and see what other people think or what other advice they can give. Thanks LetsRun.