It was nice to fart around back then and socialize and pretend running mattered. But I've kept it up recreationally for another decade and only now am I starting to realize just how damaging and wasteful it has been
--structurally i am really not built to run. my airways are narrow and crappy and this has limited me aerobically (i am getting surgery soon to fix deviated septum and open up my sinuses) so i never really had a chance to run "decent" times
--my pelvis has a posterior tilt... i have incredibly tight hamstrings and laughably massive heelstrike and overstride that i still hope to correct
--the fixation on numbers that is inherent to distance-running has certainly not helped my low-level/high-functioning autism
--neither has running helped my detrimental focus on isolation and "doing it alone"... i am basically an outcast even in my local running community
--i actually do enjoy lifting weights and progressing in the major lifts. i have a small girlish frame, but if i had spent the last decade focusing on weights, i would still look a lot better and be a lot more confident than i am. unsurprisingly, i got with my current long-term gf at a time i was lifting around 4 days a week. she enjoys running too but no woman will ever truly respect or be attracted to to a skeleton-ass distance runner. x-fit guy is right.
this post will probably get ignored or just deleted but i'm letting off some steam here and maybe this will resonate with someone else.